In the “Big Picture” I recognize everything for the experience and learning it provides. I make BIG decisions without regrets, without looking back, without future Caren finding even the slightest fault with past Caren. It's the "Little Picture" that still sometimes trips me up.
It's the thing I said or did twenty years ago that I thought was funny or necessary, turns out it was neither, AND the real kicker is that nobody but me still remembers it. Insignificant in the grand scheme of things small moments at times still rear their ugly heads to taunt and haunt me.
I’ve managed to heal my inner child, the large chunks anyway, the stuff that prevented my feet from moving forward but some small chunks still manage to occupy my deepest reaches.
I want the small things to share the same confidence I hold for the large things. I want always for the learning to be the lesson, to rewire my brain, no judgments today or ever, only learning. Yes, BIG love, no whammies!
