I’m doing the hokey pokey. I stick my right foot in and take my right foot out, but I never get to the part where I put my whole self in.
“That’s sad” I say to myself. Then I add “MOST people don’t even put a foot in,” to which I counter “you are NOT most people.” Huh, this argument sounds familiar.
It’s in there, I know it is, I discovered it a while ago. What do I get from holding it back, security? What will I gain from being fearless and unleashing it? I will be ALL in…no more hokey pokey.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
Would I give you a kidney?
That’s when you know you have cracked into my inner-most sanctum. The holiest of all holy places….that is if you need a kidney.
It is probably inappropriate, okay no probably about it, inappropriate to evaluate friendships and acquaintances this way. But simply saying “I’ve got your back” or “I’d go to the wall for you” is too vague for me. I'd give you a kidney says it all, no wiggle room.
Some who have earned a spot on my “kidney list” would surprise you, like my old cleaning lady Maxine. At sixty-five, she could clean circles around me and was one of the kindest, most hard-working individuals I have ever met. Her advanced age made her addition to the list even more notable, because she may have taken me up on it. But I loved her. I cried when I left her behind in Columbus and moved here.
If you have my enduring love, chances are good that you are on the “kidney list” (BTW it’s a mental list). I do pray nightly for everyone on the list. I pray that you are well and that your kidneys never fail!
Footnote #1: I wrote this “tongue-in-cheek” because I’m always saying “willy-nilly” that I would give a kidney to this person or that person. When I read this piece of writing to my husband he thought it was serious and sweet. How did you take it???? And more importantly do you think my marriage has a chance?????? :)
Footnote #2: The easiest way to respond is to click “leave a comment.” Then in the box write your comment and sign it so I know who you are. Then type in the word verification and select the “Anonymous” box, then click “publish your comment.” Hope to hear from you. Caren
It is probably inappropriate, okay no probably about it, inappropriate to evaluate friendships and acquaintances this way. But simply saying “I’ve got your back” or “I’d go to the wall for you” is too vague for me. I'd give you a kidney says it all, no wiggle room.
Some who have earned a spot on my “kidney list” would surprise you, like my old cleaning lady Maxine. At sixty-five, she could clean circles around me and was one of the kindest, most hard-working individuals I have ever met. Her advanced age made her addition to the list even more notable, because she may have taken me up on it. But I loved her. I cried when I left her behind in Columbus and moved here.
If you have my enduring love, chances are good that you are on the “kidney list” (BTW it’s a mental list). I do pray nightly for everyone on the list. I pray that you are well and that your kidneys never fail!
Footnote #1: I wrote this “tongue-in-cheek” because I’m always saying “willy-nilly” that I would give a kidney to this person or that person. When I read this piece of writing to my husband he thought it was serious and sweet. How did you take it???? And more importantly do you think my marriage has a chance?????? :)
Footnote #2: The easiest way to respond is to click “leave a comment.” Then in the box write your comment and sign it so I know who you are. Then type in the word verification and select the “Anonymous” box, then click “publish your comment.” Hope to hear from you. Caren
Thursday, January 1, 2009
My New Year’s Resolution for 2009 is
To stop over-achieving. It’s showing up in everything I do from writing an email to making food for parties. For some crazy reason, I seem to always “go the extra mile” and then one more for good measure. At times this can be good, but as an overall strategy for living, bad.
Sometimes, it is “the thought that counts.” I don’t have to type perfect emails or say perfect things or make the most creative dishes for EVERY party. Parties are about people not about perfect dishes and life is about connecting not about perfect wishes.
So, in 2009, I will “stop and smell the roses,” remember to enjoy being a gracious guest, and let other people lead me sometimes. I will replace my need to get everything right with an acceptance that I am all right, just the way I am. Ahhhh, that sounds really good to me right now.
You could say posting this on my blog before noon on New Year’s Day sparks of over-achieving, and I might have to agree with you. But hey, it’s day one and I’m going to cut myself a little slack. See it’s working already!
Sometimes, it is “the thought that counts.” I don’t have to type perfect emails or say perfect things or make the most creative dishes for EVERY party. Parties are about people not about perfect dishes and life is about connecting not about perfect wishes.
So, in 2009, I will “stop and smell the roses,” remember to enjoy being a gracious guest, and let other people lead me sometimes. I will replace my need to get everything right with an acceptance that I am all right, just the way I am. Ahhhh, that sounds really good to me right now.
You could say posting this on my blog before noon on New Year’s Day sparks of over-achieving, and I might have to agree with you. But hey, it’s day one and I’m going to cut myself a little slack. See it’s working already!
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